Stop Doing

Struggling to get motivated in the studio, in life. My therapist says I should stopping doing but the last time someone said that and I followed the advice my son died. He slipped out of my life almost instantly and that kind of not doing can't be undone. Living with Julius gone long term is different than the idea or the possibility. It is grinding by day by day. very slowly. painfully. It seems wrong that he will not come back to us. Initially it felt like a punishment that would be over soon but it has not end and it won't I'm told.

Today I was having an idea about shoes. That I could give baby shoes to someone since I never got to buy shoes for my son maybe it would be good to do it for others. Repair.